You're Tearin' Up My Heart

"..What hurts the most,
was being so close,
and having so much to say,
and watching you walk away.."

Okay, I know that I shouldn't have crush on him since I knew that it was impossible from the start. But who can help it right? I mean, when you like someone it just happens and the next thing you know, you are head over heels to him. Plus, he is so adorably cute. Who could pass on that?!

*snap out of it samantha*

What was I even thinking before I decided to go for a guy who is like several continents away. Somebody, anybody..tell me!!

It started smoothly. We chatted on a daily basis. We got a lot of stuff in common. He was being all sweet and romantic. Which sorta led me on. And all of a sudden, I get butterflies whenever we chat. Which is sort of a good thing to me because I won't feel like that unless I really REALLY like the guy.

And guess when was the last time I felt like this? when I was in primary 6. Thats like what? four years ago. Fine. Its kinda pathetic but I can't blame the fact that I was born with a choosey attitude okay. The fact that I am choosey with the guys too that is.

I'm choosey with clothes, food, everything! But thats not the point.

The thing is, he said that he will never give up on me to and for anybody else, but...but...he...he gave in. And we seldom chat now. Not because of me but over something else. Which I will not disclose in this blog because I think it is rather embarassing. *blush*

So, I'll just leave it to your imagination. Its nothing dirty so don't even think about IT. I'm very innocent can?

All these rollercoaster ride is really bringing me down because all I could think about is..well..him. So, I'm slowly picking up the fact that he is not the one. Though a lot of freaky coincidence happened, but I have to stear a clear mind now..*sigh*

Moving on to the bright side, shall we?

Click Five is coming. Okay, thats old news. But now they finally ditched sissy Eric Dill for sexy Kyle Patrick...and the songs are really nice.

But they sure made the word 'shit' sound so un-cool. Try listening to "I'm Getting Over You" then you will get what I mean. The whole lyrics is fine but its just that "i'll get my shit together" part. It gives me serious goosebump. It sounded so wrong. Not that I don't use the word 'shit' but...just listen to that track. I'm tired of explaining.

"..I need to wake up from this state of mind,
This situation is a staying kind,
I gotta get your memory outta my head.."

xoxo